I’m all out of sorts, and sometimes I feel like making a list to all of you about the things that don’t always work out for me. I get the feeling that some of you think I live in a world of roses and rainbows because I really don’t like to complain, and enjoy highlighting the good in life. But I do like to keep it real…My husband often wonders why I have such a driving need to share my life with people…I don’t know why I do, but I’m happy that you listen. I love the feedback I get from my Thoughtful Thursday posts, those are the kinds of conversations that I hope come from this blog. I like to hear if you’ve done something I’ve done, have aspirations as I do, want to dress fancy, do fun things with your kids, etc. But I also know that sometimes those conversations are just in your head, and that still makes me happy to know.
I had a last minute urge to go to a late movie tonight, texted a few friends, and no one could make it. Bummer. I almost went alone, but really, I like to enjoy things like that with others. I can’t imagine I’d enjoy it as much all on my own. I took my girls down the road to CVS to grab some milk so we’d have it for breakfast and grabbed this blue ice cream scoop…thinking it’d help me feel better on this blah afternoon.
I got home and thought….what on earth? I guess a $3 last minute purchase isn’t so bad.
I’m feeling claustrophobic with all of the piles of papers and artwork my kids are bringing home, and it’s reminding me that I really do need to get a handle on my home organization. It ebbs and flows, right now it’s ebbing (if I’ve got that word figured out correctly). I’m excited for our summer travels, but also need to do some major planning and prepping before, and that’s getting me overwhelmed as well! Not to mention the birthday party I’ll be throwing the day before our vacation.
I’ve still been doing well excercising daily, but my sweet tooth has got the best of me lately. I’m trying so hard to keep it at bay, but I keep reminding myself (as I am with a few of my friends that I’m “mentoring” them through hcg now) that so much of what I eat is mental cravings and urges. I’m still staying within my personal calorie limit, but wonder if that matters with treat excess. I’ve actually lost a pound or two recently, but the scale so fickle and goes back and forth over the course of a few days. I don’t mind so much, as I just don’t want it to go above a certain number.
I felt sad today because I’ve been supposed to be a “co” room mom for my son’s class all year, and at some point in the middle of the year, my partner decided to stop including me on the messages and planning, and I guess I got dropped without even knowing it. Makes me feel bad…did I do something wrong there? Did I not do enough? I know I often bite off more than I can chew sometimes, and every once in a while, something like that falls through the cracks. Oh well, just 2 days left of school.
My boys were playfully wrestling and one got hurt, and the other got defensive that he was hurt at his hands, and then got mad that the other was mad because he didn’t mean to hurt him. All I could think to say to the one who didn’t get hurt is “Have I not taught you proper social norms that if you hurt someone…even on accident, you don’t argue about what level of pain you did to them, you just apologize and wait it out til them feel better.” Even though I’m against the rhetorical questions to kids like that. When they can’t rightly answer a question (rhetorical) it makes them feel dumb, incapable, lowers the self esteem. I was just beside myself that he reacted that way. I’ve got a few things yet to teach my kids. Lifting their self esteem is high on my list.
And I have only listed about half of the things running through my head right now…
All I can do at the end of a “blah” evening (it was off and on all day, rarely is it a bad all around day) is recount the things that I did right. I cleaned my kitchen counters, played Dora Bingo with my girls, made it easy for my hubby and boys to go play disc golf with his brother after dinner, Made SUPER yummy bacon, & avocado grilled cheese sandwiches which even the kids loved (sans avocado), smiled, hugged and kissed each of my kids when they came home, had some spiritual enlightenment, took my daughter to a new park with friends, read my boys our chapter book that we all love.
Pics of “good things” throughout my day:
Walking my kids to school this morning…I will miss this next year…oldest going to middle school.
Bundled for the morning jog, at at the park. I just love this girl.
After school, eating popcycles while glued to the new Arthur show on PBS.
I’ve been reading Stephanie Nielsen’s book, and enjoying following her on insta-gram. She is truly inspirational. I’ve checked up in her blog from time to time over the past few years. I even ran into her and we chatted at a cupcake shop in Prove about 11 months after her accident.
All in all, I feel blessed…with nothing major to stew about. Thanks for letting me vent…have you had something “blah” happen this week?